Let Me Meditate on That

An excerpt on product development & meditation from the upcoming Some Cold Hard Truths

A while ago the CEO of WagePoint sent me a note. We knew each other and in fact our design agency was a super early customer of WagePoint back in 2013.

Shrad always used to say “let me mediate on that mustefa” to take time to think about complicated things and we’d talk the next day. Shrad’s problems with WagePoint were like any other entrepreneurs’ … a little bit complicated.

Let me mediate on that.

This morning I woke up to a baby outside in a backyard letting out the most adorable little cry at 7 am every 15 seconds for the past two weeks.

About a month ago, the robins that nested under the attic window had newborn babies too. There’s a few of them. I can’t see them, but I can see their reflection a little bit if I crouch and look at the bottom of the A.C. hanging out the window. I can hear them though.

I just took off my airpods blasting Drain You on repeat in my ear drums to drown out the sound of the baby and the birds because it really makes me want to blow my brains out. The music kept getting interrupted by any video that came up on Reddit and the noise of the birds kicks in again. And then the baby.

ٱللَّٰهُمَّ صَلِّ عَلَىٰ مُحَمَّدٍ وَعَلَىٰ آلِ مُحَمَّدٍ

I left the bed to sit at my desk with 1000 conflicts and anxieties in my heart (really in my mind). Very Anakin Skywalker. This time switching to No Doubt on repeat, and remembering Shrad.

Let me mediate on that.

I really should do salat instead, and I feel I will today. Shrad ended up tripping. Everybody trips. It’s okay. It’s a book of cautionary tales.

There are a lot of constructive ways to bring the force together and so I know you’re good… I know you’re good… I know you’re good… I know you’re real good.

I’m bringing all of that force & energy inside of me today to live life. And bless you.